W: July 2009

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

I have a mindset of a child

I really do. I make excuses.
I do not take responsibilities. I do not work.

My bad feeling is the result of me being small

I am sad. I need to let her know I am sad.
I was so small.
I was too small.
I was small.

I was without love.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Work

In the contemporary money culture, to be at leisure, to be idle is to be irrelevant.

I must be successful to help others

I must work.

I am normal now

I must change. I must forget all the thing passed.

Work

I need to change the way I treat H.
I am pampering her. I spoil her.

Work

I am not happy with the life I led.
I must change.
1. Get up early
2. Work during the daytime.

I do not want to blame her. It is my fault.

Care less

Do what I intend.
Intend what I say.
I will care less for H. She does not want it. Or she wants it in a bad manner.
I try to help her and help myself as well.
I do not need to do what I do not want.

Work

I have work everyday now.
I must clear my mailbox everyday.

I do not understand her

I did not.
I do not understand what she is thinking.
I do not understand the way she thinks.
I treated her as an adult.
In fact, she needs to be treated as a child.
I must seek for understanding.

I must understand the situation.
Hang is so childish.
She is so childish in relationships.
She is sensitive. I must care of my words.
She has not been treated badly before.
She is afraid of it.
She is in need of love.
Why I could ask for understanding when I do not understand my love?

In a dispute, understanding is the most important thing

That will solve the dispute, the quarrel.
That will solve everything,
When there is no understanding found, that love is dead.

Hang is so childish

And I treat her as an adult.
Hang is still a child. She needs to be cared.

If I feel bad

Talk.
Need talk for understanding.

I will do it

I will forgive ^^.

I forgive

Forgive.
That is a hard word.
That is a really hard word.
But I will.
I will love again.
But I must let her understand.
I will do that.
Could I do it?

Could I do it?

Could I do it?
Given the context, I must change.
I must change.
I must change.
I must change.
I work.

Understanding

Given her sickness, I could tolerate.

I do not want to talk any more

I do not want to care. She will be alrite. She will succeed. I should take care of myself.

I just do not want to talk any more. I disgust it. I do not know why. But I do not think I will care any more. I was treated by indifference.
I was treated in that way.

Hang on. Please remember that she is sick.
Please remember that. Please ask for my understanding.

I do not want to talk

I do not want to talk. I want to be quiet.
I do not want to talk. I do not care. Why I need to care. I should be cared not her.

I am the worse. I am the worse.

I want to walk away. I want to walk away. It hurts but I could walk away.

If I wanna say goodbye

Let give a timeset. Can love forever but say goodbye for a while. A week may be long enough.

Buon

I could not believe that.
I could not even think of that.
It hurts. It breaks. It destroy. It wipes out everything.

I could not believe in my eyes. I could not believe that is the way I was treated. That is what I am meant to be treated. I am blank. I am out of nowhere. I am lost.

I do not conceive what I should behave. I just ask why.
Why is that? why it happens. It is indifference. It kills. It shots.
I do not know why I care too much. She deserves it. But I could not understand why she behaves that way. I could not think even for a second. I am lost.

I do not want to talk any more.
Action is higher than word.
Action is something different.

I disappointed. I am lost. She never understands me. She never gets that.

I do not want to talk. I do not want to care. I wanna run away.

I hate that. I despise that.

Why should I be treated like that? Why? Why I do not have even a slightest place in the mind?

I wanna stop.

I wanna sleep.
I am broken in parts.
That is indifference. That is no care.
I know she is sick.
I know it.
I know it clearly.
But it says nothing.
It does not reduce anything, nothing.
I know it but I could not tolerate.
I could actually. But it hurts.
All are not worth a cent.
All are nothing.
All are lost.

Why I am so stupid. There must be a thing in this story.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Work

Work connects people. Work really does. I must work. That is what I need. Work.
I need to work.
I desire working.
I must have a plan to work.
In playing chess, I need to work to win. That is the biggest lesson. I must work.
I do not need to be rich but I must work.

Speak fast

They can speak fast because they always come low at the end of the sentence to rest. They use the rest time to speak as well.
That makes it faster.The ending sound is normally for resting so that is why there is no stress on it.
Make it fast by lowering the last sound.

Circle of Life.

s is what I need for advanced English

That small thing will show how well I understand English.
Citizen and citizens.
I must see the difference.

Wrok

Without work, love is meaningless. It is just word.

Work. I have gone one round from Action back to WORK.

Work. That is required.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Tam dinh

Tam dinh then I can work.
Dinh to WORK.

Friday, July 3, 2009

My head is lazy

My body is lazy.

Work

Must work in the head first. My head is too lazy to work.

Work

That is the secret of greatness. That is the professionalism.

It is a mistake to respect intelligence than work

Work is great. I am learning it. I have not worked. But I will.
I see it. It is changing me. I become a different person.
That is what I need.

Work

Play chess shows me one thing. Work.
No matter how smart you are. You need to work. Great people are great workers. No exception.
They can be intelligent. They are not the most intelligent man ever live but they are the best workers.